Where is the Love..?

Where is the Love....

Everything was fine last year....

This year... he changed... A lot....

I will never forget this.... It was Father's Day....

We went out for dinner.... Right after we finish eating... In the restaurant....

He said something... Something really harsh....

My mom tried to control her emotion....

They argued... in the car.... in front of me, and my brothers....

I cried.

My mom tried to talk to him when we reached home, after me and my brothers went back to our own rooms.

I heard him shouting at my mom.

My mom cried.

She turned her face when I walked down.

She was hiding her tears.

I went to sleep... quite early that night, hoping that everything will be fine the next day.

When I woke up the second day morning, my mom was bathing.

And he went out.

I cried. I just can't control my tears.

They used to go out together for breakfast.

I will never forget about this.

They never talk... since that.

I hate him.

I swear, I'm not celebrating Father's Day. ANYMORE.

Father's day sux.

I seriously want to get out from this place now.

What's a family, without love?

Where is the love?

Emo-ing?

Dies. It was yesterday....
Got influenced by my friends....
Why's everyone like EMO-ing because of some love matter? GAAH.

Well, my classmate, R, told me that she had a crush on some guy from our school.
Then she went quite emo because that fella is leaving our school....
Me and Gina actually sang her 'Love Story' by Taylor Swift.

"... I got tired of waiting,
Wondering if you were ever coming around?
My faith in you was fading,
When I met you on the outskirts of town,
And I said:
"Romeo save me I've been feeling so alone,
I keep waiting,
For you but you never come,
Is this in thy head,
I don't know what you think..."
He knelts to the ground
And pull out a ring and said:
"Marry me, Juliet you never have to be alone,
I love you and that's all I really know,
I've talked to your dad,
Go pick out a white dress,
It's a love story, baby just say 'Yes!'."..."

Oh well, that's the end of story... For classmate R...

Next will be... Friend S....
I have a long talk with her after school...
Well... She told me about a lot of things that I should not know...
Anyway, I hope that she will take my words...
You can do it girl!! Just leave it, I BELIEVE, you can do better than anyone else.
And you deserves a better one :)
Just talk to me whenever you need... Think about those peoples around you....
There must be someone that really cares for you... :)


with ♥
Pui Yin

Random-ness

This post is actually for Dee Dee to read la... :D.....
Well, according to what I told you in face book yesterday...
This some comments, from the... erm... Victim...?

Seriously... I can't imagine that Victim... I mean I never expect him to say these...
Plus... with a super serious look.....
Se....rious....ly...... I..... can't...... i....ma....gine.... that......

"Haiz, youngsters these days... So corrupted by the western culture... Don't their parents teach them what's right and what's wrong? And can't they think is it appropriate if they watch those kind of show? They are our future, what will happen to our future if they are all like that? What will happen to Malaysia'a vision 2010?"

Seriously, when I received his message, I LOL-ed, but... quite true also la.. Ahaha....
Sorry looooorh - -... My fault to ask you go watch.... >__>
We support gheys only maaah XDD....
Ahahah... = =

with ♥
Pui Yin

Dare to dream...

Psychologist...?
Why not?

I will 'chase' after it....
Psychologist, wait for me :)...

TIme for tuition... bye....

with ♥
Pui Yin

For myself...

Believe.....
I can do it!
I'm will live my own life!!!
GO GIRL!!!

♥ heartz always
:D smile always

with lots of ♥
Pui Yin

Post Mortem meeting

Basically, I went to Sunway Pyramid yesterday :D...

It was the first time I go there by bus, the first time I go there alone, the first time I lepak there myself, the first time I drink Martini, the first time I drink beer... A lot of first time yesterday laa XD

So, I walked to the bus station at SS 19 around 4.30 p.m., which is one hour before the meeting starts. Then, I reach Sunway Pyramid around 5.00 p.m. but the meeting have not started yet so I go lepak-lepak sendiri. In the end.... Everyone gathered in McD around 6.45 p.m.... By the way, me and Linda went around 'shopping' before we go to McD.
After planning... What we want to do... We left McD around 7.00 p.m. ++...
Oh, btw, I think it was my first time also, to talk to Fion :D... she's a very nice and sweet girl XD.... Sometimes quite funny also. Ahah! XD

Then Ying Ying say she want to watch movie.... So I actually called my mom and ask her if I can go home at 11 p.m. instead of 10 p.m.... And surprisingly... she agreed..... XD....
I thought we are going to watch movie after the dinner, but they change the plan suddenly, they went arcade instead. Most of them went to play the race car thingy and some crazy hitting Ultra-man and doggie machine...
Ying Ying, Fion, Eric and Justin went to play the race car thingy... When the game ends, Justin was swearing... Because he got first place. - -.... Eric was swearing too, because he almost got 1st/ 2nd place, then Ying Ying go bang his car and both of them 'died', and Fion looks a bit speechless.
Then, they go and play the hitting stuff one... They looks funny when they are playing... Especially Ying Ying... She keep hitting Fion's hand... (Pity Fion - -). Oh, btw, when Ying Ying hit the dog's head, she looks like some... Bomoh...
Suddenly, Chong Shen and Rui Wei went to play the game also... but they hit ultraman... FIrst time see Rui Wei so crazy... Keep punching the Ultraman head that appears from the holes.... Looks like KID XD, so LOL.

After that, they finally went for dinner + POST MORTEM MEETING, and this is where the excitement starts... Joking - -...
Actually nothing much... We go there makan and have meeting only....
Oh yea yea XD I tried the LYCHEE MARTINI XDD.
Not bad, quite nice to drink.
One thing, was I reaaallllllly drunk last night? -__-....
After I finish drinking the martini, Fion and Rui Wei, they are like:"Eh, you okaay arh?"
then Justin and Eric keep saying: "She drunk already... -________-"
The Eric laugh at me somemore -__-... Where got? SEEEEEE, I can remember what happen yesterday!!!!
Fion/ Rui Wei/ Justin/ Eric (I forgotten who told me this):"Later you reach home... You straight awaaay run in to your room.... don't talk to your mum.... If she's standing beside you.. Don't breathe too hard..."
I wasn't drunk laaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa. I know what I'm doing.... I can sit I can walk I can stand I can jump I can run I can talk.
Just that I feel like banging my head on some one's shoulder (Ying's the victim) and feel like hugging ppls (If Min Min was there she will die). Maybe because I'm A BIIIIIIIIT high after drinking the martini.
I just know I keep banging my head on my bag and the table only. I somehow failed to recall what happen yesterday in the restaurant - -... I just know very fun only la, can go out with them XD.
And yea, I want to go clubbing on my 18TH BIRTHDAY.
Pui Yin is getting more and more evil. Wakakaaa.

with lots of ♥♥♥♥
Pui Yin

Scream

How many times must I tell these to myself everyday?

Don't fail your finals. Exams. Study. Tomorrow got meeting. Your reports.

Under pressure.
My mom is pressing me too hard.
"You better not fail your finals, or else resign from ALL your post."
"How many times you need to go out one week?"
"You don't need to study? Your studies how?"
"What's the time now? 10 o'clock already! You don't need to sleep? Tomorrow you still got school you know?"

I hate it.
Stop treating me like a small kid.
I know when I should sleep.
I know what I'm doing.
I know what I should do.
I know what I shouldn't do.
I'm not a little baby anymore.
Stop talking to me this way.
I find it annoying, irritating and very insulting.


Pui Yin.

Weird Dream

I was sitting on my parents' bed just now.
Then I accidentally fell asleep.
Suffocating.
I got some weird dreams just now.
Dreams about, peoples doesn't trust me.
Peoples thinks that I'm annoying.

I hate that kind of feeling.
Felt so helpless.
Felt myself so useless.

Tired.
Strengthless.
Exhausted.


Pui Yin

Heart. Beat.

I can feel my heart beating.... fast.... then slow.... it's abnormal....
Sometimes I can barely feel my heart beating...

Trying not to think too much....
Why do I always fall into this kind of trap....
I seriously hate it.....
Who knows......
Maybe the best way is to let my heart stop pumping.

Someone please help me to escape from my own fantasy.
I seriously hate the way my brain functioning now.
My brain just can't frigging stop thinking about it

That feeling seriously... sux.....

Pui Yin

Emo Pig...

Welcome my new nickname... by my 'brother' Loo Weng Chun....

LWC: "Emo Pig."
Me: "Yes?"
LWC: "........ you admitted you're emo pig......"
Me: "Really?"
LWC: "You're emo pig..... Phaik Yan is normal pig....."

Call me emo pig. Meows.

Having the post mortem for the Leadership Seminar, RCC Meeting and CLD Programme this Friday.
What should I wear?

With ♥
Pui Yin